Art: "Depression with Psychotic Features", from Sketchbook Project 2012

So last semester, I was having a bit of a rough time adjusting to grad school.  I missed all the creative parts of myself that I felt were being smothered under five tons of articles, books, and assignments (seriously, pretty sure all those books weigh about five tons).  So when I stumbled upon the Sketchbook Project by Art House Coop, affiliated with the Brooklyn Art Library, I jumped on the chance immediately. A little pricey, I thought, but worth it to get: a t-shirt, sketchbook, digital copy of your sketchbook posted online, your sketchbook toured around the country and world...pretty sweet deal. And probably the only way I'll ever be a 'famous' artist unless the demand for creepy still-lifes explodes.

So I give you, DEPRESSION WITH PSYCHOTIC FEATURES. (Note: If you don't want to register, you can click the Stop button on your browser after the main page has loaded and before the registration window pops up.) This follows the theme that I chose, Fears and Tears. I mean, come on. How could a girl with skull decor, black roses, and a raven mascot (named Edgar, of course) not pick something with such a delightful possibility of eerieness? Yes, I'm outing myself as a morbid little emo kid. Don't hate, yo.

Anyway, my sketchbook started without any particular central philosophy. I just started to sketch things that struck me as fearful and creepy. I'd just gone through a break-up, so not really hard to find that internal melodramatic flair. As I went, I realized that all of the bits were very representative of a general melancholia, in all the various forms it can take. With a little bit of manic rage thrown in to keep things lively. Being the nerdy psych major that I am, it was a short step to the title. So I hope this sketchbook gives you some insight into disorder and how it twists even the most benign realities. And maybe some of the drawings are kind of cool. We'll see. Comment away!


  1. Wow, some of those sketches were both amazing and emotionally powerful! Beautifully dark! Thanks for sharing. I so know what you mean about creativity being smothered by academia. It's so hard to switch gears for me sometimes.

    1. Thank you so much! I'm glad they got some of the emotion across I was hoping before. Aw, you in the same boat? It's tough. The day job sucks out all your energy and there's nothing left to be creative with sometimes. So then it comes out in scary drawings. :P

  2. C.J.

    Man, oh man! I just went over and checked out your sketches! Powerful! Such emotional resonance. I couldn't stop looking at some of them. You are so talented!
    I know what you mean though. Life has a way of sucking creativity out of you, work, school, personal priorities. Everyone needs a piece of you until there is nothing left of you...for you.